A Table For One - Part 2
Those who haven't read the first part here is your link : http://rickbanerjee.blogspot.in/2014/08/a-table-for-one.html
As I started watching How I met your mother season 9, the first episode was about when Ted and his wife are sitting at a restaurant and talking. I thought to myself, one day I would be doing the same thing on this same table with my lady love. As the waiter brought my Wine, I had already started to think that I am going to end up alone in life. The maître d somehow managed to notice the tear in my eye, and came to my table and offered if I would like to change places and probably she could introduce to some people there. I smiled and I said that not today. I would like to spend my time alone. Although it was non or her business but she pushed it. Her words " You know you can get this packed and we can go to my place and probably have a nice dinner". I had never been approached by anyone like that. I started to have a feeling that something bad was about it. She held my hand and said, " Don't worry I won't rape you".. WOW rang so many bells...!!! just that dialogue... I used to say this to every girl I had dated when I used to invite her for a dinner. I quickly asked, "Where did you hear that from?". She was like her friend had dated this guy while she was in college. he used to often make such silly statements when he wanted to lighten up the mood... Ok now it was getting real. Cause I knew the guy was me... I asked her who was the girl, she said it was her friend named Ashina(name changed cause of privacy concerns). She in her sweet voice asked, " Anyway, my name is Akansha, and you are?", my cold reply " I am Rick". She reached out for a hand shake... Now I had this girl is extremely beautiful standing in front of me, who is friends with one a girl who I dumped so many years back. One side wanted me to tell her the truth, the other side said keep lying and go with the flow.
I listened to the other side. I asked her to pack up all the things. However the bottle of wine could not be given, some rules of the restaurant. My immediate reaction was "oh jolly, lets give you a plastic bag and see if you could pack it up in it".. Ok someone took it really seriously. Now I am going to name drop. The maître d named Akansha, actually got my wine packed in the plastic bag, however the food was properly packed.
As we left we walked towards my car. I felt like I am one of those players who is now in his mid 20s and going out hunting for girls. Well in this case, it seemed like I got hunted.. But anyway we sat in my car and left. It was about 10 PM so all the alcohol stores were closed. She wanted to have vodka, so we drove to the outskirts of Delhi to find a liqueur store. Finally we found one and bought our Vodka and the nic-nacs for the drinks. As we were planning to take a U-Turn to go back to her apartment, she mentioned that she needs to show me a place that I had never seen before. I smiled and I said " ok you drive, lemme just sip the wine from the plastic bag." She smiled. Ok here I admit she had an awesome smile. In fact I was quite mesmerized by it. She drove to passed a lot of places telling me the stories of her childhood and where she came from. I was more focused on having my wine and listen to music in my head... I have a problem, when I don't care what the person is saying I generally switch on the music in my head and it keep on playing till I am interrupted. Anyway while she was driving I finally realized that she is actually driving towards a place which I named my secret place... I asked her where were we going. Her answer was so simple yet so haunting.. Its my secret place...I asked her, "So for how long have you been coming to this secret place?" her answer screwed with my head, "Well honestly, its not my secret place, my friend actually brought me here one night and she was crying cause her BF had left her".. Oh fuck, I knew I had to tell her that I had dated her friend.. I finally managed to gather the courage and asked her, so your friend why did they break up.. The answer to that question I wasn't ready to hear but I had to. I wanted to listen to how much pain I had inflicted on that girl.. I wanted to seek redemption for my mistakes. I knew that I was alone that night cause I had hurt everyone around me. I wanted to hear it all...
I knew her answer... But still I pressed on... Finally Akansha replied,
Akansha : He loved someone else
Me : Who?
Akansha : Some girl from his past!
Me : So why did he date your friend in the first place?
Akansha : Well he thought she would replace his ex, but she couldn't so he finally left her and went off to his ex. Kind of a jerk I tell you..
Me : Do you know his name?
Akansha : Nope, all I know its very complicated
Me : Is his name Boidurjomani Banerjee?
Akansha : Yeah it is... how do you know that? Do you know him?
Me (Pulling out my driving license) : Yeah cause its me.
Unlike the movies, Akansha did not stop the car... She smiled and said
Akansha : Oh so you are that jerk! So how is it going with the Mrs?
Me : Well she is engaged to someone else... I never got to be with her after I left your friend. I got into a major controlling relationship which ended up in a disaster.. Now I am dating a married woman, who is filing for a divorce next week.. But I wanna walk of it as well.....
Akansha : If you wouldn't have left Ashina, nothing like this would have happened.. You know she really loved you..
Me : Yeah but it was not going to work anyway. She was too nice for me.. And I have a history of being evil.
Akansha : Well Rick, honestly you don't seem evil.. Although you have an evil smile on your face all the time, but you are not evil..
Me : Maybe but I hurt Ashina and I know it was bad..
Akansha : Don't worry, after you left she became a stronger person. She still thanks you for everything that you did for her.
Me : What did I do?
Akansha : You showed her life.. You showed her passion... You showed her love....
Me (with a tiny drop of tear) : I don't know, but I did leave her for someone else....
Akansha : Come on you were in love with someone else.. You have every right to decided.. Plus if you were with Ashina, it would have been a lie...
Me : I could have grown into loving her.
Akansha : You don't grow into loving a person. Thats compromise. And in life you should never compromise.
" In life you should never compromise" this is the tag line of my life...
Anyway... I'll stop this here and post the part 3 later :D
As I started watching How I met your mother season 9, the first episode was about when Ted and his wife are sitting at a restaurant and talking. I thought to myself, one day I would be doing the same thing on this same table with my lady love. As the waiter brought my Wine, I had already started to think that I am going to end up alone in life. The maître d somehow managed to notice the tear in my eye, and came to my table and offered if I would like to change places and probably she could introduce to some people there. I smiled and I said that not today. I would like to spend my time alone. Although it was non or her business but she pushed it. Her words " You know you can get this packed and we can go to my place and probably have a nice dinner". I had never been approached by anyone like that. I started to have a feeling that something bad was about it. She held my hand and said, " Don't worry I won't rape you".. WOW rang so many bells...!!! just that dialogue... I used to say this to every girl I had dated when I used to invite her for a dinner. I quickly asked, "Where did you hear that from?". She was like her friend had dated this guy while she was in college. he used to often make such silly statements when he wanted to lighten up the mood... Ok now it was getting real. Cause I knew the guy was me... I asked her who was the girl, she said it was her friend named Ashina(name changed cause of privacy concerns). She in her sweet voice asked, " Anyway, my name is Akansha, and you are?", my cold reply " I am Rick". She reached out for a hand shake... Now I had this girl is extremely beautiful standing in front of me, who is friends with one a girl who I dumped so many years back. One side wanted me to tell her the truth, the other side said keep lying and go with the flow.
I listened to the other side. I asked her to pack up all the things. However the bottle of wine could not be given, some rules of the restaurant. My immediate reaction was "oh jolly, lets give you a plastic bag and see if you could pack it up in it".. Ok someone took it really seriously. Now I am going to name drop. The maître d named Akansha, actually got my wine packed in the plastic bag, however the food was properly packed.
As we left we walked towards my car. I felt like I am one of those players who is now in his mid 20s and going out hunting for girls. Well in this case, it seemed like I got hunted.. But anyway we sat in my car and left. It was about 10 PM so all the alcohol stores were closed. She wanted to have vodka, so we drove to the outskirts of Delhi to find a liqueur store. Finally we found one and bought our Vodka and the nic-nacs for the drinks. As we were planning to take a U-Turn to go back to her apartment, she mentioned that she needs to show me a place that I had never seen before. I smiled and I said " ok you drive, lemme just sip the wine from the plastic bag." She smiled. Ok here I admit she had an awesome smile. In fact I was quite mesmerized by it. She drove to passed a lot of places telling me the stories of her childhood and where she came from. I was more focused on having my wine and listen to music in my head... I have a problem, when I don't care what the person is saying I generally switch on the music in my head and it keep on playing till I am interrupted. Anyway while she was driving I finally realized that she is actually driving towards a place which I named my secret place... I asked her where were we going. Her answer was so simple yet so haunting.. Its my secret place...I asked her, "So for how long have you been coming to this secret place?" her answer screwed with my head, "Well honestly, its not my secret place, my friend actually brought me here one night and she was crying cause her BF had left her".. Oh fuck, I knew I had to tell her that I had dated her friend.. I finally managed to gather the courage and asked her, so your friend why did they break up.. The answer to that question I wasn't ready to hear but I had to. I wanted to listen to how much pain I had inflicted on that girl.. I wanted to seek redemption for my mistakes. I knew that I was alone that night cause I had hurt everyone around me. I wanted to hear it all...
I knew her answer... But still I pressed on... Finally Akansha replied,
Akansha : He loved someone else
Me : Who?
Akansha : Some girl from his past!
Me : So why did he date your friend in the first place?
Akansha : Well he thought she would replace his ex, but she couldn't so he finally left her and went off to his ex. Kind of a jerk I tell you..
Me : Do you know his name?
Akansha : Nope, all I know its very complicated
Me : Is his name Boidurjomani Banerjee?
Akansha : Yeah it is... how do you know that? Do you know him?
Me (Pulling out my driving license) : Yeah cause its me.
Unlike the movies, Akansha did not stop the car... She smiled and said
Akansha : Oh so you are that jerk! So how is it going with the Mrs?
Me : Well she is engaged to someone else... I never got to be with her after I left your friend. I got into a major controlling relationship which ended up in a disaster.. Now I am dating a married woman, who is filing for a divorce next week.. But I wanna walk of it as well.....
Akansha : If you wouldn't have left Ashina, nothing like this would have happened.. You know she really loved you..
Me : Yeah but it was not going to work anyway. She was too nice for me.. And I have a history of being evil.
Akansha : Well Rick, honestly you don't seem evil.. Although you have an evil smile on your face all the time, but you are not evil..
Me : Maybe but I hurt Ashina and I know it was bad..
Akansha : Don't worry, after you left she became a stronger person. She still thanks you for everything that you did for her.
Me : What did I do?
Akansha : You showed her life.. You showed her passion... You showed her love....
Me (with a tiny drop of tear) : I don't know, but I did leave her for someone else....
Akansha : Come on you were in love with someone else.. You have every right to decided.. Plus if you were with Ashina, it would have been a lie...
Me : I could have grown into loving her.
Akansha : You don't grow into loving a person. Thats compromise. And in life you should never compromise.
" In life you should never compromise" this is the tag line of my life...
Anyway... I'll stop this here and post the part 3 later :D
